It's Christmas All Over Again

Christmas is hands down my favorite time of the year. I'm so happy right now. No work. A wonderful family. Great friends. This is going to be one of the greatest Christmas breaks of all time!!!

Merry Christmas :)

Sleepy Floyd

You know how some folks can't sleep when they're anxious or sad? It's a very common thing. Strangely, when things are weighing on my mind, the only thing I can really do to cope is sleep. In the last two days, I've slept for 23 hours. I'm even thinking about forgoing my vacation this week just to have something to do.

My word. As Led Zeppelin once said, "Communication breakdown. It's always the same..."

So Much Dates

I go out way too much. It's getting to the point where I turn passive aggressive about agreeing to go out. What can I say? It's a personality flaw. Lately I've had a potty attitude about going out with folks, but generally speaking: I'm a man of my word. So if I say I'm gonna go, I'll go. My friend calls me a "people pleaser" every time she sees me. Usually, I regret this, but not this week. There were a couple times in the last several days where I really had zero interest in going out or hanging with certain people. Interestingly, on each of those occasions (with totally different individuals), I had a blast.

For me, I've only wanted to spend time in one place (my bed...yeXxX) with one person but I know from experience that that's not healthy. What this week has taught me is that there's always a whole other world out there and if you don't explore, the only person it's hurting in the long run is you.

I leave you with a quote from the great Buzz Lightyear: "To infinity and beyond!"

Nobody's Fault But Mine

I wish I could just disregard peoples' thoughts and feelings and do whatever the fuck I wanted without worrying about consequences. Unfortunately, that's not a world that normal adults can live in.

Fuck me.

Get Your Toilet Paper Ready

'Cause it's about to get shitty. I'm paraphrasing the words of a wise man. Those who know me understand that I don't have a bad temper. I'm not a fighter. I won't get in arguments with anyone publicly and will rarely do so privately. When someone gets on my nerves, I generally try to avoid them and things usually turn out OK. But what happens when people close to you get on your nerves and annoy the hell out of you?

This is my dilemma. There are people very close to me or in circles close to me that are pushing my limits. I'm seeing that there are times where you can't just walk away. Generally speaking, I feel I'm a pretty nice dude. With that said, once the niceness goes, then I go to straight into asshole mode. For me, this is a way I can express my frustration most effectively. Is there a middle ground or a more diplomatic way about going things? Probably. Unfortunately, I haven't had the patience or desire to make such an effort. Shame on me.