She's Out of My League

A highly underrated movie :)

Cop-Out

I was thinking hard about how my last post was a total cop-out. I only drink but once a week (if that) thanks to my diet. I had selfish motivations to give up drinking (to get fit). It's not fair for me to give up something I hardly do.

Instead of giving up liquor (which I have done twice before), I'm giving up a person in my life. I'm a pretty level headed guy, but I don't always think clearly when it comes to chicks I'm into. I really shouldn't say chicks because there's only been one in the last several months.

I remember exchanging texts with Grem and Ry about this girl who I have only really known since last fall. After several months of ups and downs, things have hit rock bottom. I'm pretty sure I blew it by testing the waters and not showing enough interest when things were going really well. Right now, it's clear that she's not that into me and up until now I've dismissed the fact that she isn't really together as a person. At her age, she hasn't gotten a career started and still lives with her mom. Plus, Ry saw her eating at BJ's with some dude that looked like Fred Durst. That's neither here nor there because some of the chicks I've gone out with this year look like Fred Durst too.

For one reason or another I can't seem to control my actions or emotions when it comes to this chick. Part of me thinks she's the only girl available girl (at the time of this writing Natalie Portman is engaged and pregnant) I've really liked in the last year or so. The other part of me tells me that these feelings have to do with my ego not being able to take this rejections. This is where Aristotle's golden mean comes into play.

I'll not hear from her and out of the blue I'll get a text or a voicemail or an e-mail or Facebook wall post. As soon as this happens, I immediately consult Ry and Grem. What should I do? "Fuck her," are Ry's words. "Be strong, " Grem Says. I never listened and responded instantly just about every time. Until now.

I like to be in control and I'm not with this person in my life. That's why I'm giving her ass up for Lent. I also don't need distractions or things getting in the way of my hopes and dreams. I think I know myself pretty well. I really flourish when I'm around positive, encouraging people. Doing a little yoga lately has taught me a little discipline and the importance of mental toughness. For me, eliminating negative thoughts and influences are a key to my happiness.

So, goodbye, captain. It was nice knowing you. I'm not gonna lie: you're hot as fuck and one of the funnest people I've ever met (or had in my bedroom). But, life isn't all about fun and games. Perhaps we can try again in 40 something days.

Or not...

(Sorry for thinking out loud. Putting things in writing helps me accomplish things.)

Lent

This is probably going to upset the people I hang out with the most. I’m thinking about giving up beer and hard liquor for lent. If I give up those things, I might as well just give up all alcohol. Thoughts?

I was thinking about giving up loose women too, but you can only give up something that’s readily available, right?

So, here’s to sobriety…and Jesus. Happy Fat Tuesday!

Humble Pie

In this economy, you have to chew it and swallow. That's not going to stop me from pushing for grad school or looking at other job opportunities. I'm not just going to up and quit though. That wouldn't be very smart. I like to eat.